TMS: Day 36

 Final post!..maybe? I might update how well the treatment holds up until I need to do it again.

So day 36. I meant to post more but real life responsibilities got in the way for a while there. I’ve taken on more stuff than I have before, so I guess the treatment did something. I have more energy, but still not where I wanna be yet. I have suspicions, so I’m working on that angle for now.

I’m definitely less depressed, although Bill says I’m meaner. I think that may be because treatment brought all the emotions to the surface, rather than them being buried and causing issues. I’m trying to be mindful of that, but everything is just in the open now. It really didn’t do shit for my anxiety unfortunately. The only improvements there I think were more related to me being forced to keep a schedule and get out of the house everyday.

At the end of the day, I accomplished my major goal which was to pull me out of that numb depression I was in. Depressive episodes are much shorter and not quite as deep. My verdict is that all the time and energy spent on this was worth it. The treatment itself wasn’t bad, it was more the half hour drive back and forth that made it a pain. It was definitely worth the effort put in I’d say. But it is a commitment. 

Will I do it again? I’d say yes. This isn’t permanent and that darkness will creep in again at some point, but hopefully not for a long while. I’m glad I gave this a chance and I’m thankful I have insurance that allowed me to go out on a limb. Not everyone is so lucky. I don’t know if I’ll keep this blog active with updates, but I’ll try. Thanks for following along and all the support you’ve given. It definitely helped me stick with it.